Assalamu Alaikum (Peace and blessings be upon you)
I took a long break from blogging to give myself time to process my feelings, and let some things go.
Things are pretty great Alhamdulilah! My kids all back home ~ my son back from Egypt since April 2014 and the 2 older children are in school ( nearly 8, and 5) while my nearly 4 year old and 2.5 yr old twins continue to keep me busy but very fulfilled and grateful for life.
My husband who I left (yet again) back in July for 6 weeks said everything he could to TRY to get me back home, but it was his actions that brought me back. I was loving the fact that he was working days and at home at night for 2 months but the early morning start hours got to him and so when he had an optional switch- he opted to go back on working late afternoons until early morning which really sucks because I miss him, the kids miss him and we get along much better when he's at home with me at night and I don't have to sleep alone.
I miss blogging daily (or the most part weekly) and just letting it all come out ~ to release it
to breathe a little better after I posted.
I want to blog again. I want to say what's on my mind without fear of being scolded, or ignored.
I want to let go.
No more long breaks.
I found for the most part it is essential to my mental state, giving me more clarity, and peace of mind to be able to say whatever it is I wish to say.
I am very grateful for what I have. A new chance at family, living, and a new chance at learning, adapting, or changing. A new chance work on me.
A long break is what I needed, but now I need to write.
