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Assalamu Alaikum.

I'm in a horrible weepy mood tonight. It's nearly 12 am and I have to go to a doctors appointment tomorrow and just sitting here crying because it's torturous for me to be alone at night. For nearly 5 years now I have never gotten used to it- I really hate the idea my husband is working, and I'm at home supposed to be in bed. I would understand more IF he didn't have a choice about what hours he works but he does have a choice.

ups and downs of life- 

Tired and Weak

Hoping it isn't what  I think- my periods have been messed up since I had the twins flucuating between 26-30 days.. but according to the app I use I am on average 29 days.. ???  I don't feel crampy just extremely tired, weak, lower back pain, muscle cramps in legs.. no vomiting or feeling the need to vomit- no sensitive smell but strong need to urinate many more times than I usually do-

I hope this is my brain playing tricks on me- and maybe subconsciously I am just afraid and therefore my fears causing "symptoms"- yeah it has got to be.. I refuse to take a test because I have had many negative tests, while pregnant I won't really know until I miss my period by 4+ days.. still waiting but I don't feel like my period will be here.. and I don't want to feel pregnant but I am constantly feeling tired lately.. and I totally forgot the heartburn.. to be honest it's not that I am really afraid to get pregnant but the on again/off again feelings have been there 5+ years and if I have learned anything pregnancy hormones make me more apt to fight with my room mate (actually my husband but I don't feel married) I can't just not talk about things- it bugs me to no end..

 I have developed emotional problems due to holding everything in.. I can't hold it in and hubby doesn't want to talk ever about anything.. which is part of why I don't feel like I am married- he's back on midnights because he prefers to sleep when everyone else is awake so he can be awake while everyone is asleep- yes makes perfect sense to people who like privacy, and not to be around their immediate family.. back to THAT schedule again- of being ignored, sleeping alone, not feeling like I have a spouse at all except for the times he needs me.. I just don't understand why marriage must feel like a prison sentence of opression and suffering- if  my non molsem family members could hear that.. they would assume it was a "moslem thing".. 

so yeah if things were good, I had a great relationship with hubby I wouldn't mind having 3-4 more kids on top of the 5 I already have.. as I have always wanted a big family but the thought of having another child with all these conflicting emotions is senseless- Im so stupid!!

Assalamu Alaikum

Prophet Mohammad (SAWS) said this 1400 years ago!
Give due attention . . .

this was said 1400 yrs ago!!!!

* Camels will no longer be used as a means of transport;
* People will ride on saddles that aren't saddles (cars?);
* The distance on earth will become short;
* Horses will not be used in wars;
* Muslims will defeat the Byzantines which will end with the conquest of Constantinople (Istanbul);
* The Jews will gather again to live in Bilad Canaan;
* Very tall buildings will be built;
* The disappearance of knowledge and the appearance of ignorance, with much killing;
* Adultery will become widespread, and the drinking of wine will become common;
* The number of men will decrease and the number of women will increase, until there are 50 women to be looked after by one man;
* Islam will become worn out like clothes are, until no one will know what fasting, prayer, charity and rituals are;
* Allah will send a disease to fornicators that will have no cure (Aids?);
* People will begin to believe in the stars and reject

AL QADAR (THE DIVINE DECREE OF DESTINY);
* Men will pass by peoples graves and say: 'Would that I were in his place' (large amount of suicidal deaths?);
* The Euphrates will uncover a mountain of gold for which people will fight over (the river of Alfurat that lies near Syria );
* Two large groups of people will fight one another, and there will be many casualties, they will both be following the same religion World War II?);
* Approximately 30 DAJJALS will appear, each one claiming to be the messenger of ALLAH;
* Earthquakes will increase;

* Time will pass quickly;
* Afflictions will appear;
* Killing will increase;
* Wealth will increase;
* Women will be wearing clothes but not wearing clothes







* THE PROPHET (s.a.w.) SAID: 'IF MY UMMAH BEARS 15 TRAITS (QUALITIES), TRIBULATION WILL FOLLOW IT' (DAY OF JUDGEMENT). SOMEONE ASKED,'WHAT ARE THEY O MESSENGER OF ALLAH?' HE (s.a.w.) SAID:



* When any gain is shared out only among the rich, with no benefit to the poor;
* When a trust becomes a means of making profit;
* When paying ZAKAAT becomes a burden;
* When voices are raised in the mosque;
* When the leader of a people is the worst of them, when people treat a man with respect because what he may do;
* When much wine is drunk; red wind or the earth swallow them, or to be transformed into animals.'
* 'IMRAN IBN HUSAYN SAID: 'THE PROPHET (AS) SAID, 'SOME PEOPLE OF THIS UMMAH WILL BE SWALLOWED BY THE EARTH, TRANSFORMED INTO ANIMALS, AND SOME WILL BE BOMBARDED WITH STONES'. ONE OF THE MUSLIMS ASKED, WHEN WILL THAT BE O MESSENGER Of ALLAH?' HE SAID, 'WHEN SINGERS AND MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS WILL BECOME POPULAR, AND MUCH
WINE IS DRUNK.' THE GREATER SIGNS OF THE HOUR The Quran will disappear in one night, even from the peoples hearts, and no Ayah will be left on earth. (Some groups of old people will be left who will say: 'We heard of fathers' saying 'LA ILAHA ILLA ALLAH' so we repeat it;



* The appearance of the MAHDI;
* The appearance of the DAJJAL (Anti Christ);

* The appearance of Ya'juj and Ma'juj (biblical Gog and Magog);
* Isa (Jesus) will come during the time of Dajjal;
* The rising of the sun from the west;
* The destruction of the Ka'ba and the recovery of its treasures;
* The smoke.



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Allah is watching you.

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