Someone to talk to

Assalamu Alaikum- 

just going to free write because that's what I am feeling right now

There must be someone that I can talk to

but my mind sometimes just draws a blank

and all the times I held it in '

carrying my feelings to my body's bank

I tried to start, to make conversation

but rejection led me astray

as much as I try to keep it in

these sinking feelings never go away

I feel like I never win

You would think my thoughts would grow wild with aggravation

or my tongue spilling out it's lingering  temptation

the words held inside so tight

and this heart so full of isolation

I will conquer this plight

moving on

and let my prayers take flight

I am wrong, so wrong, too wrong

but I will make it right

I am strong, so strong, too strong

I need to fight

Ya Rabb,  Ya Rabbi

I know  You hear me

take this pain from me

Ya Rabb,, Ya Rabbi

I don't know why I'm always looking

I've tried so hard to find a friend

but I'm lost, so lost 

I know it's not the end

let me be content in You

Ya Rabb, Ya Rabbi

all these confused feelings

Ya Rabb Ya Rabbi

calm me, grant me peace

clear my heart from travesty

clear my mind of everything

fill me with Your love

Ya Rabb, Ya Rabbi

La Illaha ill Allah

SubhanAllah SubhanAllah

I don't even care if this makes sense- I just really needed to write down how I was feeling.

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